Teaching roommate to sew, cause we’re well rounded or something #gettincrafty
By James R.
Other science-y questions answered by me:
i remember the new year last year
kissing a boy with two empty hearts between us
i remember the blur
smoke-filled rooms & silence
months of apathy culminating in a plane trip
where i looked at city lights & wondered
when the lights in my heart went out
when that boy called me & cried
& i was so afraid of his tears
because i couldn’t fix my own or make them stop.
the day i told him i couldn’t fix myself
& quietly packed up almost two years of my life.
i love him always, but that day i learned
love has many faces & some of them crumble
when the truth comes out.
i remember running.
trying to write down my story from start to finish
getting stuck at the part where a man took what wasn’t his
closing my computer & drowning in distraction
dancing smoking drinking ingesting
then i ate a chocolate & sat outside
when the wind carried me to a tree
my spirit left my body
i remembered dying in a dream
smiling, now i knew why.
i felt the earth draw breath & say
you are made wonderfully my child
don’t let another creature ever make you feel
that you are less than wholly light.
i watched the lights bend & burst in the sky
on the fourth of july
that’s when the spark lit my heart on fire.
it sputtered for a while
i had to learn that not all love is worthy fuel.
but i sat in a room for hours with a kind spirit
& one day all the words made sense.
i remember realizing, like a bolt of lightning
that i could bring people together for the rest of my life
making something more lasting than a career
& with music all around me, made by friends
that life would taste sweet all the way down.
i remember opening my eyes to what was right in front of me
with lights in my eyes on a new years’ night
i kissed a boy with a full heart from a year of coming alive.
Kurdistan: The ‘tree of life’, which in ancient times is said to have reached the skies, is one of the most common symbols used in Kurdish tattoos. It represents immortality. This tattoo starts between the breast and climbs upwards towards the chin like a vine
I think, at this point in our world, we’ve got a really confused idea of the way that gender and sexuality work and we’ve created this really superfluous binary in the way we think about gender. I guess I identify as queer because I don’t identify with that. [x]